I have always had trouble sleeping at night. Why I don't know. I just assume it is because I have so much on my mind and so much to do that I go to bed thinking of what I have to get done and when. It bothers me that I can't sleep. It really interrupts my day because I will get tired in the middle of the day but I know I can't just go to sleep. Then the night approaches and with orders and other things I need to get done, I wind up getting in bed fighting to get to sleep. I start watching the clock and when I do finally get to sleep, I am only out for about 2-3 hours before waking up to see what time it is thinking it is time to get up and get my day started.
Ok thought about going to the doctors to see if I can get something to help me sleep but I don't like taking medications if I don't have to so what do I do? My husband suggested that I drink a little wine before bedtime since that seems to make me a little sleepy. But I can't do that every night or I wind up with a serious problem depending on wine to make me go to sleep. So next suggestion is trying to convince myself that things can wait til the next day and that I need to learn how to relax. Stress is the number one cause of sleep deprivation. Sometimes you don't even realize you are stressed but if you are not sleeping that could be the number one cause of it.
I always feel like I have to have everything done in a timely manner or I will be criticized for it especially when I have orders to complete. I feel if they aren't done in a timely manner, that my customers will not appreciate it and give me negative feedback. Yes I know but I value my customers and what they think about me and my products. I really do take pride in what I do and I like things to be perfect. My husband always tells me that everything doesn't have to crammed into one day and there is always another day.
Well last night was the first time in weeks that I was actually able to relax and put my mind at ease for once and I got a good nights sleep. There is one thing to just sleep and another to get some rest. I woke up this morning feeling rested after a 8 hours night. I have to really take into consideration that I am not Super woman and I just CAN'T do it all no matter how much I try to convince myself. Women have this desire to please everyone and feel guilty if they even remotely do things for themselves even if it means taking a quiet bath by yourself or just to be alone by yourself. We always feel the need to please everyone else.Kids, husband, family friends but when it comes to ourselves, we put ourselves on the back burner and it weighs on us heavily. That is where the hidden stress comes in,we don't realize it but it is there.
I am thankful that I was able to get some sleep finally.
Thanks for listening